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[12 Oct 2005|03:06am] |
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wow it's really fucking crazy the difference that a few months can make... and i know i haven't updated this in forever... and nobody will probably ever read this but i don't care. it makes me sick to think about how shitty people really are. the only thing anybody gives a shit about is themselves. basically i've figured it out. all of the people that i used to rely on as "friends" never gave a shit about me. i was a car. or whatever else they wanted to use me for. i mean don't get me wrong. theres' tricia. and page. and yeah.. there's travis. but after them who the fuck do i have. i have my family. and i guess that i should feel so lucky to have those truely awesome people care about me.. and i do... but really. do u know how many "friends" i've lost just over this past summer. my life isn't the same at all. i'm not the same at all. i don't know what to think about anything anymore. and nobody is helping me how i need them to. it seems like i have nothing. and no.. this isn't one of those entries that i always see ppl writing so that people will feel sorry for them. this is just a way for me to let shit out that i have nobody else to say it to.. jsut because i already know how they will all react. goddamn... i'm so sick of all this shit. i want to just run the fuck away. and never come back to this fucking shitty ass town where people have nothing better to do than to fucking talk shit.
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[03 Jun 2005|12:30am] |
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so i was thinkin about deletin this thing.. but then i thought.. nah.. why would i do that? this is the place i can wine and bitch about everything.. and it doesn't matter if you want to here it or not.. cause if you didn't then you either wouldn't read it or ure just that damn bored.
so anyways. here it comes.
i've been thinking about EVERYTHING so much lately.... you don't understand.. shits never been this fucked up in my life. but then today i just decided to come home early and "take a night off" to spend time with mah father and it was prolly some of the most fun i've had in ages. which is absolutely crazy. it's like when i'm with my friends i can't just let lose anymore. i'm not having fun. i don't know why.......... it's weird. not all of them. shit seems really weird with heather right now. and page. page is just actually never there.. i never talk to her anymore... i dunno it's strange. and me and tricia are just changing so much. we're both goin ways i never thought would happen. it's so fucking crazy how shit works out. but oh well.. none of that made any sense WHATSOEVER to any of you.. casue i'm retarted and can't get the words out that i'm trying to say lol.
but yeah.. anyways.
don't get me wrong.. not everything has been terrible by any means. let's see here....
(1) I'M FUCKING DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL FOREVER!
(2) Me trish and page are reunited!
(3) Cece just got a patio home thingy.. and once i turn 17... i do believe me her and adam are going to be roomies :) lol im a dork sorry
(4) I might get a water bed there! i haven't had one of those beasts since i was like 6.. back in the day when i actually still lived with my mom. crazy.
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[25 Apr 2005|05:56pm] |
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okay so i'm reallll fucking sick of school. and being grounded.
but besides that everythings been awesome!! :)
only like a month left of school...
oh and.... did i mention..... THIS IS MY LAST YEAR!! FUCK YES!!!**hopefully that is
i'm goin to summer school and graduating early. :) i can't wait!
hahah k well i'm out!
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[06 Apr 2005|07:36pm] |
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the ballad of curtis lowe... skynard ;) |
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it's been a while since i updated. spring break was fucking awesome. it went by wayyy too fast though. i spent the first half at the beach we all went down and stayed in cece's condo. lol it was soo much fun. we came back i think... wednesday.. somethin like that anyways. we just all hung out and what not the rest of break. had a lot of fun! but now we're back at school. bleh. but only like... 30 more days until... SUMMERRRR!!! yay!! i can't wait, this summers gonna be awesome. anyways everythings been goin pretty good lately. proms like.. next week. which is crazy. it'll be fun though! :) mkay well i'm gonna go get tan. i love ya'll!!
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[19 Mar 2005|11:02pm] |
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okay so this weekend's been awesome so far. last night was soo much fun! everybody just chilled at the apartment last night.. it was great. :) and then today i seriously slept the entire day, and finally got up outta heather's bed at like 7 this evening to get a shower and shit lol and then my dad called me and told me that they ended up bein able to find an extra ticket for sale.... so now i get to go to the race with them tomorrow :) yay! i'm so excited! i love goin to races it's soo much fun! lol so then i made the long journey home cause we have to leave here at 7 in the morning.. which is crazy. i think this is the first saturday night i've stayed home that i can remember. it's crazy. not bad though, it's nice to relax. kay well i'm out.. peace :)
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